Wednesday, November 9, 2011

'Leaving Leonina', excerpt from Saved by Siena, written by Danielle Boiardi


There is nothing like the feeling of the strong Italian sun on your face, and the sun at Leonina was particularly omnipotent and invigorating. It made time stand still. We’d hang out around the pool on the weekends and there was always some kind of party going on with fun people I was happy to be sharing my time with. It was a great existence, yet there were dreams I hadn’t pursued that started speaking to me, subtly scratching at me like cat claws in my side. I felt, somewhat pessimistically, that it would be impossible to achieve my dreams if I stayed where I was. I will admit to you now, that my defeatist attitude would stay with me regardless of my geographic location. I was always dreaming about something. Life was pretty damn sweet right there where I was, but I had a rare talent for inventing a reason to bale, no matter how abundant my momentary paradise was. I was wanting. I longed to create, to tap into the endless fountain of inspiration I felt to write songs and stories. Me and my ego wanted to be less anonymous than we were. I had more pipe dreams in my head than Home Depot, Leggoland and New York City could contain. I didn’t know where to start on the path to turning my desires into a fulfilled reality, but had an itch that told me I would be better off back in The States. It was after all, the land of opportunity,.... right? I had run away to Siena, and then stayed hiding out like Harrison Ford in The Fugitive. Except I didn’t have to prove my innocence, just the mere matter of my value in the world. I was sure of that, and I felt like I’d be living a coward’s life to stay where I was. Maybe I was just full of shit and excuses. I certainly wasn’t prepared to swallow my pride and accept the miniscule career options that were staring me in the face there in the Sienese countryside. I could have lived a quiet, contemplative existence with the love of a good man beside me, and yet I was hungry for more, even if I couldn’t pinpoint what it was at the time. I was acting like a greedy american for sure, but was also desperate to fulfill a lust to create.

On one gorgeous afternoon mid May, I went out on my own to conquer the six-mile loop around the craters. I had been working my way up to it, as running was one of the only ways I could find a sense of control in those frustrating indecisive times. I made my way up past the castle and to another group of condos where a mother was outside playing with her kids. Their lean and muscular, gray mastiff was leashed onto the fence that sat just off to the side of the dirt road. It was a very big beast. And as I got closer, it started barking up a territorial storm. I would’ve been petrified to continue onward had I not seen it securely tied up. Just a breather after that false moment of security, suddenly, its leash came undone, and in a split second it was lunging at me. There was nothing to stop it from attacking me, and I was gripped with fear. It latched on to my right hip at the bone, and I was face to face with it’s devilish white-blue eyes. This canine was all muscle, and all I could do was pray that it would loosen the searing bite it had on my flesh. The mother started screaming, not knowing what she should do, and suddenly the devil dog let go of me. I was so pumped up with adrenaline from the shear terror of the moment that I started running again as if my life depended on it. The woman screamed “Non correre!, Don’t run!.... I’m sorry!”, but I was already on auto pilot, fueled by an unbelievable rush that encompassed flight instinct, a biologically induced strength, and my common sense that said ‘get far away from here and do it fast’. I had never experienced a physical strength like it before, and haven’t since. I was unstoppable. I left the scene behind me in the dust and the distance, and without thought of slowing down, just kept on running.

I ran down into the lower lake section of the craters and moved through the landscape like a gazelle. Like a warrior. I was barely conscious of my body, my breath, or how far I’d gone. Before I knew it, I had made it all the way back around to the dirt road entrance that led back up to our house, and I began my last ascent. I got inside the house, and with the adrenaline finally waring off, I started to feel the hot pain from the bite again. I called Paolo at work and launched into the drama of the whole story. The creature had left a serious mark on my hip and broken the skin, which was already starting to bruise. Paolo was rightfully concerned, and offered to come home early, but knowing I was no longer in any real danger, I told him “Non ti preoccupare’, not to bother. I had experienced some gripping fear that day, but something had also freed itself up in me. After the terror, tears, sweat and distance I had run wore off, I wondered if it was time to leave. I wasn’t so much afraid to stay at Leonina, as I was afraid to NOT go back to New York. I feared I had been unconsciously living my days masquerading as my own worst enemy, and that it was time to stop the charade.


Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Le Foto Sparite, (The Vanished Photos)


Seven weeks in Italy. The food, the wine, staying above Siena's best pastry shop,....the unforgettable moments with friends old and new. Thank God for the precious photos that had captured so many of those delectable instances in time.......the very same photos that are now gone. "Sparite". Disappeared. My alter ego has reminded me that the visual majesty of the twelfth century, now roofless abbey of San Galgano, could make anyone lose there concentration just enough to leave behind their camera. Yet I have mentally flogged myself for that stupid mistake over and over these last two weeks, and I am desperate to really understand why. If I'm such a live in the moment person, then why so much attachment to images of what is now the past? The truth is that I had scrolled through those pictures enough times before I'd lost the camera, that I would have at least pretty decent memory recall of each snapshot. But I'm greedy. I'm an Italian culture vampire. I was in utter misery in the first moments when I realized the camera wasn't in its case, and subconsciously my trip was already over. Too bad really, because at that moment, I was enjoying one of the brightest, most romantic white wines I'd ever tasted, in a very unassuming but lovely piazza in the relatively unknown village of Monticiano with Dad and my best Sienese buddies, and I wasn't even really THERE for it. Why couldn't I shake it off? I answered question one with ease. I was over the loss of the camera itself within moments, (although it was a sweeeet little digital...). It was all about the images: The photos of my first real scuba diving adventure on the island of Elba, and the visions of the gigantic aloe and oleander strewn across its terrain. Photos of my father and I meeting our distant relatives for the first time in the fairytale town of Bettola, the very town where my great-grandfather was born. Climbing the equally glorious leaning tower of Pisa and La Torre del Mangia in Siena with a dear friend, and thinking that from up at those heights, anything was still possible. 'Momenti indimenticabili' as they say in italian. If the moments were indeed so unforgettable, then why am I still so gutted by the fact that I'll never again see those images? So much for staying in the moment. A picture is worth a thousand words they say. But what interested me more, was what those particular words would have to tell me. I had already teleported myself "trekky" style, back to the U.S., where I would lean on those images for mental support, for the times when I'd have a Jones for a good strong shot of La Toscana. I was in the midst of a major reorganization of my very chaotic life, and I would cling to those visuals as if they were no- fail recipes for reliving all the emotion and aromas of those moments with perfect accuracy. So I could feel the water from Bettola's Val Nure where I had dipped my hands and collected stones in the life-affirming river of my ancestors, so I could hear the laughter of my gorgeous community of friends at Cinzia's vegetarian dinner while we played Italian board games from the nineteen- seventies, so I could again smell the decadent cherry liqueur notes of the La Calla red of Montecucco that I savored with wild boar sausage and pecorino. I am somewhat of an addict to the landscape, cuisine, and people of The Tuscany, and Italy. So from the unkind snowbelt geography of The Hudson Valley, where I consider myself to merely half-live, I would use those precious photos to dose myself with italianita' as often as needed, to tap back into a lifeline....



Saturday, May 14, 2011

La Famiglia Rosini, Amici del Cuore.



Nel mese d'agosto 1997, avevo appena passato l'estate impiegata come cuoca per una coppia 'infame' d'inglesi in una certa villa a Sovicille, appena fuori Siena. Avevo accettato il posto di lavoro in un periodo d'insicurezza, e pieno della ricerca per la mia indipendenza. Di vista, la villa era un vero paradiso. La sua architettura era strabella, con i suoi giardini eleganti, situata in mezzo ad una foresta da favola. Al'inizio dell'esperienza, il luogo mi sembrava un rifugio personale, sia per la sua bellezza visiva che per il guadagno fisso che c'avevo assicurato. Ma nel mezzo di ogni paradiso si nascondono sempre dei viperi, pronti con un morso acide per farti ricordare che sei solo in un'oasi. Dopo qualche mese d'aver lavorato in un ambiente falso e aristocratico, senza il rispetto minimo dei miei datori di lavoro, avevo deciso che fosse l'ora d'andarmene via. L'unica problema era che non sapevo ancora dove andare....

Avevo parlato della mia ansia con un mio carissimo amico del cuore, Robertino, che ci viveva vicino, nel paesino accanto, a San Rocco a Pilli. Appena gli ho parlato della mia situazione difficile, lui mi ha subito suggerito che io andassi a stare con la sua famiglia per un po'. Anche se avevo gia' conosciuto la sua famiglia, mi sembrava un grande gesto d'aver fatto. Ero gia' abituata all'ospitalita' italiana, ma quest'offerta mi ha colpito in maniera profonda. Mi sentivo tanta lontana da casa mia, e sapevo che Robertino e la sua mamma Maria erano di una bonta' enorme che avrebbe rifornito il mio spirito. Ho gentilmente accettato il suo invito e fra qualche giorno mi troverei al loro ingresso con le mie valigie.

Sono arrivata a casa della famiglia Rosini verso le otto di mattina a ricevere un bel abbraccio acogliente da Maria. Lei era una signora piuttosto piccola di statura, ma di grand'affetto. Robertino era un uomo cosi alto e grande, che non potevo mai capire com'era possibile che lei l'avevo partorito. Maria mi ha benvenuto nella cucina e subito mi ha preparato del cafe. Era la prima volta in tanti mesi che mi sentivo davvero rilassata ed al mio agio. Ci siamo mese a parlare di tante cose, mie e sue, ed ero molto contenta d'accompagnarla a fare la spesa in centro. Lei era una cuoca bravissima e mi sentivo tanta fortunata di stare alla sua tavola durante le prossime settimane. Mi ricordo un sugo speciale che lei ha preparato con dei peperoni freshi del loro orto. Era cosi' vellutata, ed e' fuso in bocca. Ogni suo pasto era fatto con attenzione, il suo talento, e tanto amore. Quando Robertino e' tornato dal lavoro, staremmo un po' sulla terrazza accanto alla cucina a godere la serata, e mi sentivo sempre spensierata ed a casa. Ho passato piu' di tre settimana da loro prima che trovassi un nuovo lavoro e apartamento in centro a Siena. Mi sentivo veramente beata d'essere stata la loro ospite. Mi avevano dato una casa e tante coccole quando avevo bisogno di riprendermi, un dono che non dimenticherei mai.

Ho fatto la decisione difficilissima di lasciare La Toscana due anni dopo, per tornare negli Stati Uniti, e non vedrei la famiglia Rosini di nuovo fine a piu' di dieci anni dopo, quando sono finalmente tornata a Siena questo novembre scorso. Ho avuto il piacere di passare del tempo sia con Robertino e la sua sorella Isabella che con la loro cara mamma Maria. Loro erano piu' accoglienti che mai, ed i profumi che venivano dalla loro cucina erano ancora inebrianti. Adesso Robertino e' diventato un cacciatore di cinghiale ed ho avuto la fortuna di provare una delle sue cacce. Maria mi ha spiegato come aveva bagnato bene la carne per poi prepararla 'in umido'. Lei aveva fatto anche un contorno speciale, uno sformato di cavolfiore, che sembrava pericolosamente delizioso. Eravamo a tavola in quattro, e sentivo del rimpianto d'essere stata via per cosi tanto tempo. Sia 'il cinghiale in umido' che 'lo sformato di cavolfiore' erano buonissimi ed ho mangiato fine a quando non potevo piu' respirare. Col passare degli anni, si capisce che non esiste una data di scadenza per le amicizie del cuore. Si capisce anche che di sentirsi 'a casa' e circondata dagli amici sia una cosa preziosa, e comunque un sentimento cosi forte da dirigere la tua vita. Ho capito tante cose durante la mia ultima visita in Toscana. So bene che di vivere nella toscana mi ispira tanto. So bene che di stare a tavola con la gente buona e' un dono grande. E tengo presente in mente, ovunque io vada, di riconoscere le mie benedizioni.


Friday, May 13, 2011

"Insalata di Riso", Rice Salad recipe from Graziella Mazzon, Seveso, Milan



I first enjoyed "Insalata di Riso" one summer at the Milan family home of my dear friend Enrico, prepared by his lovely Italian super mom Graziella. Some of her other specialties include 'Fresh Calamari Stew', slow cooked in her own unique tomato sauce, and her own summertime alcohol infusions; 'Basilcello', fresh basil liquer, and 'Limoncello', fresh lemon liquer. Both are absolutely heavenly! She told me this 'Rice Salad' was one of her 'quick, summer staple recipes', and upon my first taste, I became an instant, adoring fan. It's refreshingly delicious, and so full of flavor. Over the years, I've made it many different ways, varying the fresh green vegetable, and only sometimes adding in tuna or ham. The vinaigrette can be made sans garlic too, but I would never advise you skip it! Alla tua salute Graziella... Enjoy!

Insalata di Riso Ingredients ( for six people plus)

1 lb. arborio rice
one block swiss cheese in small, cubed chunks
one half pound ham in small, cubed chunks
one container ripe cherry tomatoes
half cup pitted cured black olives
half cup pitted green olives
half cup plus capers
one cup chopped fresh basil
*Dani Variation add one cup toasted pine nuts

Vinaigrette
One cup extra virgin olive oil
Fresh squeezed juice of two lemons
3-5 cloves of garlic finely chopped
Salt and fresh ground pepper to taste

Boil rice 'til cooked 'al dente', drain well, and chill in fridge.
Cube swiss cheese and ham, chop olives and cherry tomatoes in halves, chop fresh basil, toast pine nuts. When rice is well chilled, add in all ingredients, including capers, and mix thoroughly, but gently. Lastly, pour fresh vinaigrette over mix, mix again gently and serve!

Other variations on original recipe*

-add one half pound chopped fresh, lightly steamed green beans, chopped fresh lightly steamed asparagus, or lightly steamed chopped zucchini
-add finely chopped scallion
-replace chopped ham with chopped tuna



Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Siena, Citta' Mia, City of The Palio, excerpt from Saved by Siena


In the mid-nineties, I was an excited, bushy-haired American girl studying Italian in Siena, Italy. What was intended to be a typical six month study abroad, would turn into a live-in love affair with the dreamy, medieval city that would last almost five years. During my first months there, I was lucky to live in the very picturesque Via San Marco, otherwise known as the beating heart of the Contrada della Chiocciola, the Snail Contrada. It was here that I’d come to understand the glorious, impassioned, and moving traditions of the controversial Palio, which has been taking place in Siena for centuries.


The city of Siena is divided into seventeen contradas, or neighborhood ‘sections’ that have their own history, society clubs, and even baptism ceremonies for new “contradiaoli”, or members. I was charmed enough to be living right across the street from The Societa’, clubhouse, and for six wonderful months, had a birds-eye view on the larger than life traditions and preparations for the spectacle of The Palio, that’s seated in the soul of the city’s history. Not every foreigner would want to be woken up early on weekend mornings by a troupe of snare drummers parading and singing under their window. But for me, it was the best alarm clock you could have after a short night’s rest fresh from drinking amazing and cheap red wine in the Piazza del Campo the evening before. The Palio parade practice was always as stimulating to see as it was to hear. Every contrada has its own symbol and insignia, in most cases an animal, as well as its own flag with a unique color scheme. The symbol of “my” contrada in Via San Marco is the chiocciola, or snail. Its flag’s colors are yellow, red and bright royal blue. All of them are beautiful, especially when viewed being twirled and tossed around in parade, as are the traditional medieval costumes that share the same colors. In late spring, the members of the contradas start practicing their flag and drumming drills for the ceremony of The Palio, that will start three days prior to the big race day, including the two hour plus long “Corteo Storico” parade the day of The Palio itself. On the weekend mornings they’d start drumming their way down my street, and regardless of how many hours sleep I’d had, I’d love to hear them approaching from the top of San Marco’s hill. I marveled at the passion, commitment, and preparation they gave to every aspect of the centuries old horse race. Besides, they were damn good at “La Sbandierata” tricks, launching their flags high up in the air and catching them, and I found the traditional songs so infectious and moving. The race itself occurs two times during the summer, once on July 2nd, and then again on August 16th. The contrada flag bearers and drummers will parade through Siena and their prospective contrada, if they’re participating in the Palio that year, and boy will they parade if they win it. The victorious contrada will march and sing at the top of their lungs throughout the city, and wine will flow from the contrada street fountains as if the world was coming to an end.


There’s historic debate over exactly how long the race has been happening. Some historians believe it even dates back to The Etruscans. But by most historic accounts, it dates back minimally to the mid-thirteenth century, and has been occurring inside Siena itself since the mid sixteen hundreds. A few years after my study abroad, while living a somewhat crazy, ex-pat life outside Siena for a time, I saw evidence of the much earlier Palio days. Walking through the bucolic “Tebaide” forest near Sovicille, there were stone contrada sculptures in the woods behind my house, honoring what was known as a temporary Palio race track between 1669 and 1692. Only ten of the seventeen contrade can run horses in any given race, as is tradition and for logistical reasons. The seven that didn’t run in the last Palio will get an automatic spot, “d’obligo” and the three remaining spots get decided by lottery at a nail-biting ceremony in the piazza, called the “Estrazione”. The horses and riders have no room for error in the minute long race, as the piazza has wicked sharp curves, especially the curve of San Martino. The fantini, jockeys, may come from Siena, or also outside the Tuscan region. There are a lot of shady maneuvers that go on during the race, including swats at each other with their riding crops, and sometimes, riders have even gone so far as to push other riders off their horses. Despite the aggressiveness of the race, it is something to be seen and experienced, with levels of hysteria you can’t imagine. Locals especially, will sleep out from two nights before the race to ensure a view right on the track. They scream, cry, sing, and generally go ballistic, both as winners, and losers. I was lucky enough to see The Palio a few times from inside the track center, packed in like cattle, and from an above apartment balcony looking onto the race. What actually is The Palio? It’s a large drape like fabric banner that gets designed and painted each year by a new artist, which is awarded to the winning contrada. Historically, they were created to recognize a holy apparition of The Madonna, and protections that The Madonna offered the city of Siena during war time. You can go see many of the past year’s Palii in a museum in the city center, which are unique and quite beautiful. The jockeys are chosen, in most cases, both for their ability and their race cunning. A lot of money and pride are put on the table for The Palio, and each contrada has an emotional, spiritual, and yes, financial vested interest in coming out the winner.


Centuries ago, the race was first run by buffalo, and then by farm horses, who obviously moved much more slowly, hence the race was less dangerous for the animals. These days, the piazza hasn’t changed, and still boasts tricky corners, but the type of horses they race most certainly has. The honor that’s bestowed on the winning contrada has led the stakes to be risen, and they now use fast paced racehorses that reach speeds never intended for the small, ancient track. Each contrada raises as much money as possible to buy the best jockey, and they pray they’ll get a good horse when they are chosen for them by lottery. They all want a combination that will produce a win that will be celebrated as if it belongs personally to each member of the contrada. In the week before the race, a crew comes in and begins laying down three or so layers of dirt that will convert the outer part of the seashell piazza into a makeshift track. The terra cotta bricks get covered over so much that they disappear completely. They also erect bleachers to view the race, which will go around the track, and from which you can watch the whole set up process. One early morning after taking in the hot sulfur baths at Petriolo, outside of town the night before, my friends and I sat on the bleachers, stinking of rotten egg from the sulphur, and watched some of the Palio practice races which start at six am or so. It was really exciting and well worth staying up all night for. These bleacher seats will get sold for a pretty penny, and the numerous apartments that have balconies on the piazza will make even more money for their unbelievable and prestigious views. Being in Siena for the Palio is one very festive and intense time. As the Pre-Palio season begins, each main street of the various contradas will put out decorative, ceramic street lights, and their colorful flags. Each contrada also has a rival contrada, and these oppositions run real deep. In some cases if a husband and wife are born and baptized into different contradas that are rivals, one will leave the family house during the Palio days, proof that the rivalries have no boundaries. In disdain you’ll hear one contrada member say about the other, “fa schifo alla citta” which means ‘that contrada brings disgust to the city’. These same words are even sung in traditional Palio songs that are chanted at all hours of the day and night throughout the city. Whatever your personal feelings about the race, the Palio has stood the test of centuries of time, which is an admirable thing in an age where nothing seems to last, culture is diluted, and most things are disposable in the modern age. I’ve been back in the U.S. now for many years observing some of our traditions, which include stopping in for a daily half-caf at Starbucks, and participating in Black Friday shopping, which has proven to be just as dangerous for shoppers as the Palio is for horses. Where’s the substance and celebration? The first place I ever lived in Siena was in the Chiocciola Contrada, so I have a particularly sentimental fondness for it. And despite not being baptized into the contrada at birth, which most sienese are, I still consider myself “of the chiocciola”, una chiocciolina. I miss the sights and sounds of The Palio and that feeling of infectious love and appreciation for the city I called my home, if only for a time.


My father and his wife Lily were visiting me during the week of The Palio my second year there, and upon my suggestion, bought tickets for us to attend the famous sidewalk dinner “The Cena della Prova Generale”, basically, the Pre Palio trials/practice dinner. It was a beautiful summer night, and I was ecstatic to have the chance to both discover and share this special traditional dinner with them. The contrada members set up an outdoor feast, decorating and turning on all the antique street lights up and down each contrada’s principal street. In the Chiocciola, the dinner was set up in my beloved Via San Marco, and the neighborhood never looked so gorgeous. The contradaioli are honored to share their contrada pride with Siena’s visitors, and make the five course meal a memorable one. After the dinner that night, a kind and very handsome contradaiolo named Robertino, spent the better part of that late night trying to teach me how to ride a motorino there in San Marco, adding to my many poignant and unforgettable Chiocciola memories. The year before, my norwegian roommate Hanne and I had been the lucky subjects of a very lovely, surprise serenade. We returned home late to find two of our Chiocciola friends, Massimo and Patrizio with another gentleman, Altero, outside the societa’. They greeted us with a sweet but simple ‘Buona notte ragazze!’, and we headed up to bed. Within a few minutes, they had assembled chairs below our bedroom window right there in San Marco, and began ‘la serenata’. As true ambassadors of romance, they sang both Sienese and Italian traditional standards for a couple of hours as we looked down on them from our third story window sill. It was a clear, starry night, and even after the neighbors started yelling ‘Basta con la serenata!’, they kept right on singing. Change is inevitable, and so much in life uncertain, but the years I spent in Siena, and my tender memories of San Marco stay fresh in my mind, and as bright as ever. As time ticks on, Siena remains the irreplaceable ‘citta’ mia’, city of my heart. ‘Con lento passo e grave nel campo a trionfare Chiocciola scende’. This is the motto of The Chiocciola contrada, which translates to; ‘with a slow and important step, the chiocciola enters the field triumphing’. I was always awestruck by this saying, and think I’d be pretty happy if I could live my life with ‘a slow and important step’. Just three days ago, I heard the very sad news that one of my serenade crew had passed away some years ago of cancer. So I dedicate this story to your dear memory Altero, and to all the dreamy romantics still out there.





Sunday, May 8, 2011

Estratti dal Primo Capitolo di 'Saved by Siena' scritto da Danielle Boiardi


Pian piano, siamo arrivati alle colline di Asciano, e la vista divenne più mozzafiata in ogni momento. Ero piena di curiosità per vedere dove Paolo aveva la casa. "QUESTA E’ LA STRADA', ha detto, 'LEONINA'. Come se fosse una republicca propria sua, con una sua propria famiglia reale, da una favola. Non potevo credere ai miei occhi. Abbiamo girato su una strada sterrata che era fiancheggiata su entrambi i lati con cipressi. La strada saliva sempre più in alto, i cipressi mai ad abbandonarci, ed mi sono sentita come se fossi in viaggio segreto di paradiso perduto. Era la fine dell’estate, e l'aria che ronzava dentro e fuori i finestrini della macchina era calda ed inebriante. L’aria era da imbottigliare, da drogarsene. I punti di vista da entrambi i lati della strada erano altro che belli e da un’altro terreno. A sinistra apparse una visione perfetta delle Creti Senesi, le colline argillose senesi. Sembrava contemporaneamente fuori i tempi degli etruschi antichi, ed un paesaggio da un altro pianeta etereo lontano. A destra c’erano colline di campi di grano verdi e dorati che, sotto la luce radente del tardo pomeriggio potesse farti piangere dalla loro bellezza. Si alzò in alto, una collina alla volta, fino a quando noi eravamo proprio sotto un casolare rinnovato. Li’ Paolo disse con orgoglio, 'IO VIVO QUI'. Non potevo credere quanto era spettacolare il luogo. Sembrava di essere una muta dal mio silenzio. Ho potuto vedere delle sculture in marmo nel cortile anteriore sopra il bordo spesso e tortuose di cespugli di alloro mentre stavamo per entrare nel parcheggio. Abbiamo camminato lungo il sentiero verso la porta dove ho potuto vedere un imponente arco di marmo nella parte anteriore della sua casa. Ha poi spiegato che è stato fatto in 'Giallo di Siena', un marmo giallo-oro dalla regione. ‘Giallo di Siena a Leonina’.... i suoni ballavano per la mia boca..... Che posto. Che sogno. Che uomo affascinante. La sensazione complessiva del giardino è stata meravigliosa, siccome ci sono state più piccole sculture in marmo dappertutto il suo prato. Siamo entrati dentro il suo posto e ho avuto la visita completa. La casa era alta ma stretta, e completamente cool. Ci sono stati accenti in marmo ad ogni sguardo, e la scalinata arrivava su un secondo piano pieno dei dipinti di Paolo. Al terzo piano Paolo aveva stabilito la sua camera da letto su un soppalco, che mi susurava ‘pace’. Avevo sempre amato l’idea di dormire su un soppalco, come un rondine al nido. Poi, da bambina avevo un letto a castello e di pensare a dormire lassu’ con lui mi fece pacificare. Abbiamo parlato, mentre ha iniziato la cena e mi sono sentito immediatamente a casa con lui, nonostante il pre-bacio tensione che sempre accompagna un primo appuntamento. Io ero seduto al tavolo, mentre lui ai fornelli, e mi ha scoperto in un momento di sguardo fisso verso lui che, ovviamente, non stavo facendo abbastanza di nascosto. Quando ha catturato il mio sguardo, si è mosso rapidamente verso di me, sulla mia sedia, e si e’ mosso verso me per un bacio appassionato. Mi sentivo come se fossi una gazzella che era stata sorpresa da un leone in un video della fauna selvatica. Come se la calda personalità di Paolo e il suo bel sguardo non sono stati sufficienti ad ubriacarmi di infatuazione, il paesaggio di Leonina mi ha fatto girare la testa e cosi, l'affare è stato sigillato più rapidamente. Ancora più importante, lui era un tesoro reale, e ho sentito che forse avevo finalmente trovato il link che mancava nella mia vita senese................

Il posto di Paolo era la dimensione perfetta per due, ed i prossimi mesi sono stati di beatitudine. Non abbiamo mai avuto neanche un’argomento. Ho finito un altro lavoro o due in restauro, ma poi le cose si sono prosciugate. Non c'è nulla come la sensazione del forte sole italiano sul tuo viso, ed il sole a Leonina era onnipotente, tonificante, e fece fermare il tempo. Ci piaceva stare intorno alla piscina durante il weekend e c'era sempre una sorta di festa in corso con della gente simpatica con cui ero felice di condividere il mio tempo. E' stata una esistenza grande. Purtroppo c’erano sogni che non avevo perseguito e sentivo che sarebbe impossibile da realizzare se fossi rimasta dove mi trovavo. ( Un’idea sbagliato). Sono sempre stata una sognatrice. La vita era dannatamente dolce proprio lì dov’ ero, ma ho sempre avuto un talento per inventare un motivo per scappare, non importa quanto fosse abbondante mio paradiso momentaneo. Sentivo una mancanza. Ho voluto creare, a scrivere canzoni e storie. Io ed il mio ‘ego’ volevamo essere meno anonime di quanto lo fossimo. Ho avuto sogni grande, più nella mia testa che potesse contenere Home Depot, Leggoland e New York City. Non sapevo da dove iniziare il cammino per trasformare i miei desideri in una realtà soddisfacente, ma aveva un prurito che mi diceva che avrei piu’ speranza se fossi tornata negli Stati Uniti. E’ stata, dopo tutto, la terra delle opportunità, giusto? Ero scappata dal’inizio per Siena, e poi rimasta nascosta come Harrison Ford in Il Fuggitivo. Tranne che non ho dovuto dimostrare la mia innocenza, solo la mera questione del mio valore nel mondo. Di questo ne ero sicura, e mi sembrava di vivere la vita di un vigliacco se fossi rimasta dove mi trovavo. Forse ero solo piena di merda e di scuse. Di certo non ero disposta ad ingoiare il mio orgoglio ed accettare le possibilità di carriera minuscole che mi stavano guardando in faccia. Avrei potuto vivere una esistenza tranquilla contemplativa con l'amore di un buono uomo accanto a me, eppure ero affamata per altre cose in più, anche se non ho potuto individuare ciò che è stato in quel momento. Io agivo come un’ americana avida, e basta. Avrei dovuto trovare una maggiore disciplina dentro di me. Piu’ grinta.

Su uno splendido pomeriggio a metà maggio, sono uscita da sola per conquistare il ciclo di sei miglia intorno ai crateri. Ho lavorato la mia strada fino ad essa, siccome la corsa è stata uno dei pochi modi in cui avevo trovato un senso di controllo. Ho fatto la mia strada finche’ ero passata al castello e sono arrivata ad un altro gruppo di condomini, dove una madre era fuori a giocare con i suoi figli. Il loro mastino, magro, e grigio, era al guinzaglio sul recinto che si trovava appena fuori al lato della strada sterrata. Era una bestia grande. Mentre gli stavo avvicinando, ha iniziato ad abbaiare come se facesse una tempesta territoriale, e sarebbe stata pietrificata per continuare avanti se io non avessi visto che era legato alla recinzione. Tranne un tratto, venne annullata il suo guinzaglio, e in una frazione di un secondo è stato affondo contro di me. Non c'era niente per fermarlo di attaccarmi, e sono stata afferrata dal terrore. Si e’ attaccato alla mia anca destra proprio sull'osso, ed ero faccia a faccia con i suoi diabolici occhi bianchi-blu. Questa bestia era tutto muscoli, e non potevo fare altro che pregare che avrebbe allentato il morso bruciante che era sulla mia carne. La madre cominciò a gridare, non sapendo cosa avrebbe dovuto fare, e improvvisamente il cane diavolo mi lascio’ andare. Ero così pompata con adrenalina dal terrore del momento che ho ricominciato a correre come se la mia vita ci dipendesse. La donna gridava "Non correre !.... Mi dispiace! ", ma io ero già sul ‘pilota automatico’ alimentato da una corsa incredibile che comprendeva l'istinto del volo, una resistenza indotta biologicamente, ed il mio buon senso che ha detto 'Vatene molto lontano da qui e farlo in fretta'. Non avevo mai vissuto una forza fisica di simile prima, e mai successivamente. Sono stata inarrestabile. Ho lasciato la scena dietro di me nella polvere e la distanza, e senza il pensiero di rallentare, ho continuato a correre. Corsi giù nella sezione inferiore del lago sui crateri e mi muovevo attraverso il paesaggio come una gazzella. Come un guerriero. Ero appena cosciente del mio corpo, il mio respiro, o quanto lontano ero andata. Prima che me ne fossi resa conto, avevo fatto tutto il viaggio di ritorno in giro per l'ingresso della strada sterrata che portava indietro fino a casa nostra, e ho iniziato la mia ultima salita. Sono entrata all'interno della casa, e l'adrenalina finalmente se ne andava, percio’ ho cominciato a sentire il dolore del morso di nuovo. Ho chiamato Paolo al lavoro e ho lanciato nel dramma di tutta la storia. Il cane diavolo aveva lasciato un segno grave sul mio fianco, aveva rotto la pelle, e ci stava già iniziando un livido. Paolo è stato giustamente preoccupato, e diceva di tornare a casa presto, ma sapendo che non ero più in alcun pericolo reale, gli ho detto di non preoccuparsi. Qualcosa si era liberata in me quel giorno, e dopo il terrore, le lacrime, il sudore e la distanza che avevo corso, mi sono chiesta se non fosse l’ora di andarmene via. Non ero tanto impaurita di restare dove ero, quanto ero pronta a smettere di comportarmi come il mio proprio peggior nemico.

Ero piena di scuse stupide, e ne sono partita con una come un paracadute per essere tornata "a casa". Capisco solo adesso che di sentirsi d’aver ‘casa’ sia un sentimento quanto importante che sia aver il cibo, l’aqua e l’aria da respirare. Ci voleva un coraggio grande per decidere di vivere li’, fuori il mio paese, lontano dalla mia famiglia, ma avevo seguito il mio istinto che diceva ‘Qui tu appartieni’. Nei quattro anni in più che avevo trascorso lì, ero sbocciata da una studentessa americana insicura di sé e piena di dubbi, ad una giovane donna coraggiosa che ha saputo prosperare, o almeno sopravvivere da sola. Ho misurato le vittorie della mia vita uno macchiato gustoso alla volta. Un giorno, mesi fa, in Piazza Il Mercato, mi ero trovata in mezza ad una conversazione senza sforzo con una anziana donna senese. Qualcosa di cui ce ne siamo parlate mi ha portato a dirle che ero da New York, e lei ha detto sinceramente che dal mio italiano, era sicura che io fossi nativa. In questo scambio momentaneo complementare, avevo vinto la mia borsa di studio Fullbright, sono stata promossa, ed ho meso un premio ‘Golden Globe” sul mio mantello. Ma in fondo, nata un’americana, sempre un’americana. Eppure le mie opzioni sono diventate piuttosto limitate senza documenti e quatrini, abbastanza per vivere una vita toscana piu’ facile che sognavo. Il libro ‘ Sotto il Sole Toscano’ di Frances Mayes mi ha proprio freggato. Spontaneamente, anch'io volevo essere la proprietaria di un casolare abbandonato e vivere una vita rispettabile e gloriosa, con tempo per ristrutturare la casa e preparare dei pasti decadenti con basilico fresco dal mio giardino. Accidenti a lei e il suo romanzo ben venduto! Accidenti ero delusa, e temeva che, per risparmiare soldi per la casa senese dei miei sogni, avrei bisogno prima di ottenere uscita da Siena. Non mi ricordo quanti giorni sono passati prima che ho iniziato la discussione con Paolo, ma mi ricordo che ero davvero triste di lasciarlo. Ha cercato di agire come se avesse capito la mia decisione, ma i suoi occhi hanno raccontato una storia diversa. Lo invitai a venire a vivere con me e fare la prova a New York, ma sapevo che c'era solo una piccolissima possibilità che mai lui avesse avuto fatto la mossa. Fare o morire, la mia decisione è stata presa, e un piano è stato messo in moto. Meno di un mese dopo, ci siamo detti un arrivederci cinematografico e doloroso presso l'aeroporto di Pisa, che è stato uno dei giorni più difficili della mia vita. Non va bene correre delle paure e problemi della vita, ma io ne ero diventata esperta. A luglio ero in pieno shock culturale tornata nello stato di New York, e lavorando sodo per chiudere un capitolo veramente bello nella mia vita. Ero sicura che stavo facendo scelte coraggiose per la mia auto giovane, ma da quando ho lasciato Siena c'è stato qualcosa di vitale mancante in me che non sono stata in grada di rimediare. Ne con la forza della mia penna, la mia voce, né denaro, o nuovo amore. Ho ballato facilmente in una carriera come restauratrice, poi ho iniziato a scrivere e suonare canzoni al vivo. Successivamente ho studiato la terapia di musica e la voce jazz, ma la stessa paura del fallimento e di mediocrita’ che avevo provato seduta a Leonina era ancora con me a prescindere delle linee latitudinale della mia destinazione. Il mio vero problema era che non potevo mai accontentarmi. Ero ‘un maniaco del lavoro’, e sono saltata sulla ruota del criceto di duro lavoro a New York, inseguendo il successo, la stabilità e la reincarnazione di me stessa che mi avrebbe permesso di guardarmi allo specchio ed essere contenta di come vivevo i miei giorni. Ho cercato di vincere la lotta sulla mia strada attraverso relazioni fallite, fatture mediche, e la definizione nuova e cambiando di 'cosa fare per “riuscirci” in America'. Otto anni sono passati prima che io venissi su per aria, e sentivo un pensiero pessante che forse avevo commesso un grosso errore a lasciare Siena. Gli ingredienti della mia ‘dolce vita' sono stati li’, dentro una bella ciotolina, proprio sotto il mio naso da sempre. Ero scappata a Siena al inizio. Poi sono scappata di nuovo di tornare a New York con la speranza che le mie paure si sarebbero rimasti li’ nei campi Toscani. Invece avevano fatto l’autostop indietro con me, e c’erano ancora a succhiare la vita dalle mie vene come sanguisughe disperate di rimanere con la loro ospite. Improvisamente avevo trentotto anni e rimettevo in discussione TUTTO.




Graziana Pieri, Buona Mamma Italiana #1, in the series; Le Buone Mamme Italiane


The first time I met Graziana Pieri, I was a nervous, weary, and very hungry young American study abroad student who had just arrived in Siena, Italy, for the first time. I was part of an odd group of five wilted and wired young ladies who were invading her kitchen at the ungodly hour of 11:30 pm. Her daughter Beatrice, had just become a liaison for our academic year abroad program, and was quite enthusiastic about her new assignment. Unfortunately, our scheduled arrival was botched by a missed flight in Paris, which created a domino effect of more missed planes, trains, and automobiles, causing us to arrive five hours late at the Stazione di Siena. Dear, sugary and patient Beatrice was waiting for us when we finally did arrive, and followed her mother's command to bring us to her house for a midnight dinner. We were complete strangers to Graziana, and she had no incentive whatsoever to extend such a warm welcome to us besides her innate 'love of nourishing'. I will never forget the sight of the full moon and cypress trees framing the Pieri apartment house, just below the very regal Porta Romana, as we arrived, desperate for refueling by the gracious offering of a midnight meal. Despite all being "A" Italian students back in The States, we could barely manage the basic 'Ciao' and introductions as we staggered into the kitchen one by one. Graziana was a robust, beautiful Italian woman, with golden blonde hair and kind blue eyes. We were all greeted with the customary and intimate left and right cheek kiss, both by Graziana and her comical, raven haired husband Gino. We filed into the large l-shaped table where our places had been set with simple white porcelain pasta dishes. Graziana then dished us out abundant servings of simple spaghetti, with her handmade sauce that was extraordinarily tasty. We heavily spooned on fresh grated parmesan that was quite superior to the filler- laded grated cheese we were used to, and dug in. Her sauce was full of flavor, and had a luxurious, velvety and buttery texture. I would later learn that her 'passata' sauce was made with both canned AND fresh tomatoes which would simmer into a 'soffrito', or sauteed base mix, of carrot, garlic, and onion. I came to be of the strong opinion that the magic of that sauce was all about the carrot, and of course Graziana's mad kitchen skills. I am sure she would be quite surprised that one of her simple, staple recipes would get this kind of accolades, but even after years of enjoying so many of her more complex meals, that sauce has kept a front row place in my heart. The six month study abroad experience was wonderful, but barely scratched the surface for me, and I ended up living in Siena for more than four years. Along that timeline, I spent many hours in Graziana's kitchen, and came to think of her stove as a holy altar. On one occasion, she decided to make a light and fun dinner for us; her 'pizza con patate e rosmarino', potatoe and rosemary pizza, which was too tasty to be served to mere mortals. She had, of course, made the crust by hand, and then layered on finely sliced potato, fresh mozarella and abundant fresh rosemary. I raved about that pizza to the point of embarrassing her, and ate enough of it that I could've gone 'pizza blind'. Her 'polpetti di carne', meatballs, which were often served without sauce, were melt in your mouth ambassadors of taste. Her homemade lasagna with fresh bechamel was also a real show stopper, so decadent and delicious, that you could hear a pin drop at the table as we consumed it like heathens. I want to note that Graziana's 'bonta', or abundant goodness, reaches far beyond her culinary skills. She cares for her family, Gino, Silvia, and Beatrice, with supernatural love, stamina and an attention to detail that I have always found staggering. After too long an absence from the Pieri family's house, I recently returned for a life altering, three week visit back to Siena. I spent many hours doing lots of catching up, and eating.....in Graziana's sacred kitchen. I felt so lucky to be back in the Pieri house, with such dear people who many years before, had given me a home away from home. I was smart enough to pick Graziana's brain about her cooking, and added much to my learning experience about her and her stellar culinary talent. One night, she prepared a rosemary and sage roasted chicken, stuffed with lemons, and braised with white wine. The accompaniment? Oven roasted potatoes with olive oil and fresh rosemary, perfectly soft on the inside, crispy on the outside. It was another award winning combo dinner that I was all too thankful to be a part of. Graziana, you're one in a million, and being seated at your table is a divine experience! I thank you for all your kindness, hospitality, and for each and every amazing meal you've invited me to. Yours gratefully, with love, Danielle.

Monday, January 31, 2011

Vin Santo, Enrico and 'La Cippolata'


You never forget your first time


........... drinking Vin Santo. When I first tasted the sweet wine, my mouth felt like it was being romanced by a worldly, elegant, and very fascinating suitor. I was living in Siena in 1995 when I first was introduced to this unearthly delicacy. My twenty-four year old american palette was hardly sophisticated, and I was just beginning to develop a taste for the universally famous wines of The Tuscany. I had decided to study in Siena at the University for Foreigners as part of my Italian Studies degree. I was enchanted by the prospects of studying what's said to be the truest form of the Italian language in the dreamlike medieval hillside city. Siena is famous for its Duomo, The Palio horse race, the breathtaking Piazza del Campo, its medieval iconography; the works of such great artists as Duccio, Simone Martini, and Pietro and Ambrogio Lorenzetti. It was a special place, where every other breath you took was a reminder of how lucky you were to be walking its romantic cobblestone streets. I was instantly interested in the history of everything 'Senese' and of 'La Toscana'. The stories about the origins of Vin Santo vary widely. It was consumed in church masses from at least the middle ages onward, thus making it a 'holy' wine. And legend has it that monks in Siena around the time of The Great Plague used it to heal the sick, which would also give it its 'of the saints' rep. If you are a fan of Vin Santo, we can agree on the fact that its taste is a 'holy moly' thing of beauty.
I was quite taken with the Vin Santo all by itself, when a large plate of 'cantuccini' was brought out and placed next to the wine. Cantuccini are almond biscotti and are the "Robin" sidekick in the dynamic dessert duo of "Vin Santo e Cantuccini". 'Cantuccini' is the diminutive form of the word 'cantuccio' which in Tuscan dialect means "the corner", as is the shape of the cookie. I for one found it an out-of-body experience dunking a semi-soft almond biscuit into a delicate caramel flavored wine, and had to close my eyes as they melded together in a symphony for my tastebuds. I also found myself monitoring my consumption of the duo, not wanting to appear to be pigging out in front of my new foreign language student friends. Ummm, Vin Santo, another great reason to be in Siena for the next six months.... The dessert is famous on any Tuscan menu, and around a table of Sienese, symbolizes their show of friendship and hospitality. Wouldn't you know it- those six months turned into four incredible years that I ended up living in and around Siena.
In the fall of '96 I was staying in a great apartment in the center of Siena while doing an apprenticeship in the artisan craft of gilding. One night while at a small bar in town I met Enrico. He was a Milan native, and also doing an apprenticeship in goldsmithing. A fifteen year friendship was born. There were many afternoons that his Maestro, the dear and departed Valerio Passerini, would take us out for lunch in the small, one- trattoria towns of Orgia, Buonconvento, and Monte San Savino. We'd split homestyle dishes of 'Cinghiale in Umido', wild boar stew, 'Ribollita', vegetable, bean and bread soup, or 'Salumi Tipici e Pecorino Fresco', local salami and fresh pecorino cheese. For dessert, a piece of 'Torta della Nonna', like pound cake, filled with vanilla custard and covered with pine nuts, and ..... for good measure, 'perche' ci sta sempre bene', because it always goes well, Vin Santo. Wherever there were unforgettable encounters with dear friends during my years in Siena, there was Vin Santo.
I just got back from a three week trip to Siena where I reunited with many special old friends, and of course with Enrico, still making beautiful jewelry out in The Ville di Corsano, and now a maestro in his own right. I reminded him of an amazing sauce that he had made for a group of us on a few occasions. He called it La Cippollata, 'la cipolla' being onion. We'd finely slice up a whole bag of seven or eight large onions, let them caramelize in good olive oil, and then add canned tomato. We'd slow cook the sauce for a couple of hours, to be served over spaghetti, or 'pici', thick tubular pasta, and as a final ingredient add in Vin Santo. It gave the sweet and pungent sauce a unique flavor dimension that was unforgettable. The night before I left, we had a 'Buon viaggio Danielle' blast where all my sienese friends were brought together. Beatrice, Enrico, Paolo, e Cinzia, cari amici del cuore......We talked for hours about old times, dreams realized, and new dreams to be chased, and the Vin Santo was only an arms reach away.

Saturday, January 15, 2011

Nostalgia 1980

June 2010

by Danielle Boiardi

I remember a paperback book by Wayne Dyer being in our living room around 1980. I wondered what it had to say, but was busy pleading with my Dad to buy me a pair of Nike sneakers that everyone had. Dr. Dyer and my Dad both had moustaches, only Dadʼs was darker. I worried about lots of things like why wont Mom buy “manwich” and the jars of peanut butter and jelly that were swirled together. I worried about our family. Iʼve been listening to Wayne Dyer in my car relentessly over the past few weeks and I get why his book made its way into our house way back then. Our house was the official house of “self-defeating behaviors”. Mom and Dad got divorced in 1980 but they decided to buy a house together anyway to keep the kids together and our lives more simple. Huh? Confusing concept, I know...Dad was to have the top floor and the basement which had the second kitchen. So he cut a hole in the second floor staircase to make a pass-thru. My sister and I shared a bedroom which was also on the top floor and we would use the funky staircase to maneuver our way up and down our odd labyrinth household. We were a couple of smarties, and realized even then how absurd this whole set-up was, but that stupid and dangerous thing gave us a place to play, hide, and eventually we got really fast at jumping around its 90 degree turn. Our room was yellow, with handmade curtains and bedspreads made by our dear, talented seamstress Nana. Dadʼs room was next to ours, with wood paneling and dormer spaced closets. One held his bags and vitamin stash which we would get into to raid the vitamin E capsules and squoosh them on the floor, which I now realize was both for stress relief and fun. There was that great poster of Farrah Fawcett in that closet too, in her swimsuit, head back, hair flowing. It gave me a strange comfort to see her picture in there, all blonde and glowing. Now she is gone. The other closet had Dadʼs remarkable collection of Playboy and Penthouse magazines dating back to the fifties. There was a small bathroom up there where Mom was found gasping for air one afternoon around 1982. She had suffered a collapsed lung and luckily dad came home early that day. Virginia Slims slogan back then was “Youʼve come a long way baby”, Mom even had the t-shirt. They just forgot to say that if your lung collapses from smoking that toxic shit youʼll need help to pry yourself off the floor. Mom and Dad were both too scared to live alone and move on. Dad had an easier time of it though. He would go out every friday night wearing his Dingo boots to a bar called the Cheshire Cat. I donʼt remember my Mom dating , and we kept busy watching Mash, Happy Days and Threeʼs Company. Neither of my parents were very emotionally secure, and still are not. There was a John Denver album always hanging around that I loved hearing, “Ay Calypso the places youʼve been to , the things that youʼve shown us, the stories youtell.... I wished that any one of us felt that carefree. I thought John Denver wouldʼve lived a long life, but sadly not.

Wayne Dyerʼs message back then was all about changing self-defeating behaviors,which neither of my parents read, or if they did, it fell on deaf ears. There was constant discord and arguing in that house. Strangely enough, we had very lavish Christmases, and no shortage of order by mail chocolate logs. I stayed home lots from school,probably because it was the only time I could get peace and quiet.

The 914 Broadway house was a circus, but I would die to smell that upstairs woodpaneling, sit on the closet floor and smell Dadʼs old musty albums and magazines thatare now long gone. I couldʼve read that Erroneous Zones book myself and maybe gotten something out of it had I known I might need his message today. Now, thirty years later, I am listening to him in my car remind me that we must live in the now, and not blame our parents for shit that went wrong in our lives. Itʼs a huge idea to live a life without excuses. The present is the only time that matters, and I have just as much power now as I did all those years ago. I would, however, like to remember how I felt back then, when I was 9. So despite all the sadness and chaos of that time, Iʼm filled with nostalgia for 1980....

Oh no. A chin hair. The quest for an explanation.

August 2010

Oh no. A chin hair. The quest for an explanation.


The other day while looking in my rear-view window, I noticed a terrifying sight. It was not a fast approaching tornado ready to swallow up my car, nor was it Jason Voorhees from Halloween ready to slash me. It was a chin hair. Even worse, it was long and it was white. Horrible images flashed through my mind. First, I thought of crazy mediterranean gypsy women, the likes of whom might sacrifice a chicken for good luck. Next I thought of The Stygian Witches from the original Clash of the Titans movie who had scared me to death when I saw it for the first time in 1981. I had been seeing a stray grey hair or two pop up on my head for a few years already, but this was a different story. I then realized that the real scare of the discovery was that I was reaching middle age. There are lots of things a person can do to fight social or legal injustice, but what about aging injustice? I take care of myself. I eat my fruits and veggies. I'm fit. I've even cleansed with the lemonade drink. Why the *#@! was this happening? Although I'm half Italian, in other words, "mediterranean", I've never had issues with dark or unwanted hair growth. I never really felt I had to do any facial waxing, and always thought of waxing in general as a barbaric ritual. I really had to wrap my mind around this one, and come to a place of acceptance. I had my twentieth high school reunion not long ago, and I get that I'm not twenty-something anymore. Frankly, I'm much wiser and happier being in my thirties. But still, I felt I needed to do some research to see why more facial hair sprouts as we age. Apparently, this is usually part of normal skin changes associated with aging, and certainly can be a hereditary trait. Hmmmm, Nana is Sicilian..... On a more serious note, having lots of excess hair growth can be a sign of hormonal imbalance called hirsutism. It can also be a sign of menopause. If you have irregular periods, hair growth can be one side effect, as androgens, (male type hormones) increase. One hair or two doesn't mean that you're necessarily having a medical issue, but it does make you wonder why Mother Nature has such a messed up sense of humor. So when I got home that day, I prioritized to get the tweezer and pluck that thing to kingdom come. By the way, it is a wives tale that plucking hairs will make them grow back coarser. Afterwards, however, I was hit with a strange touch of guilt. It was the same feeling that had come over me after plucking a few greys from my hair in the past. Was I committing an offense to my rightful, hard earned maturity by banishing the grey from my head? Perhaps. But I decided that the chin hair fell into another more dastardly category. I wouldn't obsess about the aging process, but simply resign myself to the idea of having to pluck a hair or two from the chin geography every now and then. Big deal. I'm trying to keep my eye on the bigger picture these days, reinventing my career, volunteering at my local theatre renovation, and have nearly finished my first novel. I decided I have no time to sweat the small stuff, or an occasional chin hair. The pen is mightier than the sword, and I wont leave home anymore without my tweezer.


Coochy Coochy Coup
An Expose• on Bikini Waxing and the Plight of the Uninsured Glamorous Woman
by Danielle Boiardi
Recently, I was feeling like I needed a little glamour before leaving for a vacation to visit friends. So I called my friend “Amelia” to have her book me for a bikini wax at thespa where she works. I had never had a bikini wax before, and frankly was alwaysturned off of the whole idea of waxing after seeing a friend of mine wax her father•s back on the living room floor of our apartment. I guess I thought a bikini wax would make mefeel pampered, taken care of, and yes, a little Hollywood. Despite the relaxing, poshatmosphere of this chic upscale town spa, the waxing experience was anything butpampering and glamorous. Truthfully, it was awkward, excruciating, and a rather ridiculous ritual. Believe it or not, women have been manicuring their southern statessince around 1500 AD. “The American” leaves you with a basic trim of the bikini line, “The French” leaves you with just a landing strip- for brave girls with sight- challengedboyfriends, and “The Brazilian”, or “Playboy” wax takes it all off as the name suggests.As I didn•t give any direction to my friend, who recently became an estetician, I endedup with a landing strip plus a bit. I will also tell you that my poor coochy underwent avery painful experience both during the waxing, and for four days after. I did feel more “trim” in my bathing suit, but I also felt really irritated, self- conscious, and stupid. I wastold that the first time wax will be the most painful, and then they hurt less if doneregularly. If you haven•t ever had one, you can check out some crazy videos on Youtubethat sneak -peak the vibe of this trend.
The experience and my discomfort after seeking out what I thought would make mefeel glamorous, got me thinking that deep down, I don•t feel very “taken care of” thesedays. We pay an absurd amount of attention to the details of appearance. Waxing has been popular in Brazil and Europe for ages and is now more mainstream than ever herein the U.S. But It•s somehow more acceptable to me to live in a country that•s hyper-focused on beauty and appearance when you feel that society firstly places value onyour inner health. France and Brazil both have national health care, while we still do not.It seems it could finally be on the horizon, but for an ever increasing number of us, it can•t happen soon enough. I work for myself, and finally bought into a private plan afterbeing uninsured for over six years. The small business I contracted with didn•t provide insurance despite the fact that myself and my co-workers worked full time hours. I stayed working there at least partly because it afforded me the money to pay for my own health insurance, but because I couldn•t afford to live in New york City, I bunked three or four nights weekly with my 97 year- old Nana in her one bedroom apartment in New Jersey- yes, this was a totally crazy way to live week toweek, but it at least allowed me to hold a decent paying job. I eventually realized thatmy job was presenting actual health problems and greater risks overall to my physical and mental health, than leaving, and not having the income to afford to be part of the now elite class of the insured.
I haven•t had health insurance for five months since having to cancel my plan. I willmention that I practically needed a part time secretary to get them to pay on my claimsanyway. Working for myself, I make too much to get subsidized health insurance and yet too little to afford a decent plan where I live. My friend “Amelia”, the estetician, doesn•t have insurance either. She used to work three jobs to support herself and still made little enough to get medicaid. But after she worked hard to get schooling to have anew career, she started making just slightly more money so that the state of New York dropped her Medicaid. Only now, she still doesn•t make near enough to pay for a privateplan on her own. She ironically called me the week after my plebian wax, worried thatshe had a serious bladder infection but didn•t have the money to go see a doctor, and likely pay a month•s salary for exams. Besides doing waxing, “Amelia” gives verypersonal, doting facials and skin care advise to women who, for the most part don•t have our money struggles ( Attention: conservatives/ national health care enemies-We both have college educations and work full time jobs and still can•t afford to be insured!) and in a moment when she realized she needed serious medical care, it was out of herreach. I could hear desperation in her voice and imagine she felt like a degradedsecond class citizen. So many of us can•t even find the luxury time to feel pissed off about what•s going on in this country because we•re so busy just trying to get by.
Yes, we are a pretty nation. Pretty messed up. There is no priority for health, dignity or basic rights of people in this country. Those politicians and their fearful misinformed flock who work against the progress of pro-national health care reform should have their heads hot waxed.

WEDNESDAY, AUGUST 11, 2010

Why Caponata?


Making a good caponata takes the same crazy mix of ingredients that you'd put into a well balanced life. It's all about the sweet and the savory working together in harmony. Nana taught me to make la caponata years ago when I was in my early teens. She has been eating this delicious eggplant relish her whole life and is still going strong at 98, her longevity yet another reason to add it to your recipe box. The foundational first ingredients of the caponata are onions and celery, two stalks or so, that are browned in olive oil. This is not a recipe that should be rushed, so slow down and take your time. While the onion mix is cooking down you should be well into chopping up the eggplant into small-medium size cubes. There is no exact amount of eggplant, but I use two to three decent size long and thin eggplant for every onion. Nana has convinced me that the thinner eggplant will cook up to be more tender, and not so bitter as the more rotund examples. Help the chopped eggplant slide down the cutting board into the pan. If you are having "one of those days", make a caponata. If the sun is shining outside but you're still feeling blue, make a caponata. You should let the eggplant get slightly soft and start to unite the mix you've got so far. Open a large can of crushed tomato and add it to the happy pot. Stir the mix so that the tomato well covers the eggplant mixture. Do this with love and patience, the flame should be low now, and you can take a little while to daydream,....thoughts of Italy, of Nana's New Jersey kitchens, of your first kiss, etc., while the eggplant cooks down further. If you haven't done so yet, put on some of your favorite music. Once the sauce has cooked "into" the eggplant mix, add one cup of red vinegar to the mix. Follow the vinegar with one cup of sugar. Give the new and improved, about to turn sassy mix a good stir through. You'll also need some green and black olives. You can use just one kind or the other, but the caponata wont be as colorful, and trust me, it's just as pretty a dish to look at as it is tasty to eat. Nana taught me to chop them in half, and even a little smaller is fine, but don't go too small. Think hearty. Now comes the wonderfully salty, joyful little capers. Add enough so that they're "easy to find" in the mix, but don't go overboard or the caponata could end up being more salty than sweet. We don't want that. One time, I was making a caponata and was doing a little too much talking with my roommate and instead of pouring a cup of sugar into the mix, I measured out a cup of salt from a storage jar, and needless to say, there was no saving it. It was salt city, and the batch was done in. So.... daydream yes, but be present in the kitchen. Once the capers are in you can add a bit of pepper to taste, you shouldn't need to add salt, as the olives and capers take care of that task. Let the mixture continue to cook a bit more on a low heat, and then "ci siamo", we've got a caponata. It's nice to eat hot, over pasta or even couscous, but my favorite way to eat it is chilled from the fridge. Great on a cracker, by itself, or paired with some nice fresh italian cheese. It's a great "go to" recipe when you need to check out for a bit from the stress of life, or if you want to make something special for yourself or for someone you really love. Mille grazie Nana.


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Saved by Siena "2"


He had come to America in the late 1880’s with his school teacher wife Aminta, and their first two boys, in search of the good life, as so many did during the end of the eighteen- eighties. After many years living on Bleecker Street in Manhattan, working as a tailor, he took ill, and made a heartfelt decision to go back to Piacenza to die. Standing in front of his gravestone, I felt a deep sense of personal completion and at the same time felt sorry that I could not know him, or my grandfather or great-uncles for that matter, and would never be able to hear about all the exciting and cinematic experiences they had lived through in their lifetimes from their lips. My Uncle Jack who was an engineer worked a lot in France and England, and he regularly traveled on the Queen Mary ship. He was married at one time to a screen actress , and according to Nana Jean, always dressed like a real dapper Don. He supposedly had a ticket for the Titanic, and due to his late arrival that day, missed the ships departure. He was somewhat luckier than his brother Mario who after working as an artist in New York, and even painting parts of the celestial frescoes on the ceiling of Grand Central Terminal, went to Italy to fight in World War One and tragically died in an avalanche. My grandfather John, was a supervisor in the GE Prentiss factory in Connecticut, which made lots of mechanical parts used in the war, including parachute harness closures and such. He unfortunately died young of an aortic aneurism in the early sixties. He felt the attack come on, and drove himself to the hospital , but by the time he got there the damage was too great and he died that day. Times were hard for most back then, and my Nana had more than her share of tragedy as a young woman. Her mother died tragically of a missed diagnosis burst appendix when she was only thirty four. Her last words to my Nana were “take care of your brothers, and don’t let the baby cry”. My Nana Jean, was the oldest child, only twelve at the time, and had to learn hard knocks style how to cook, clean, and care for all her three younger brothers. The boys were at first taken to an orphanage, by her father who didn’t know how to care for the boys, as would’ve been a popular decision in the nineteen twenties. But upon an early visit to the orphanage, Nana’s father found one of the boys with two left shoes on his feet, and decided he couldn’t bear to leave them all there. The two year old baby Marie would be taken in and cared for by my Nana’s Aunt, but the boys and her father became her responsibility. Nana learned to sew and make money as a seamstress when she was just thirteen years old. A french seamstress taught her how to hand sew fine undergarments of silk and lace, for wealthy clients who would commission such items. Nana went on to have a long career in the garment district in New York as a pattern maker and dress maker for Patty O’Neill, amongst other companies. She worked hard, paying high rents in order to raise my father in a wealthy neighborhood in the Bronx, and didn’t retire from the business until she was seventy-two. She was still hemming our pants until a few years ago, when at 95, her arthritis stopped her from being able to work her magic with a needle and thread. Maybe because there was so much sadness in my family history, so many lives half- lived, I would eventually feel such a calling to go to Italy, to learn how to live well, and to fulfill the lost dreams of my ancestors by way of my own adventures. From Nana, I learned how to bread chicken cutlets, make manicotti crepes by hand, and learned to love good food and the art of hosting an Italian feast. I also learned the importance of good work ethic, and to appreciate opera. As kids, we spent plenty of weekends at Nana’s apartments in the Italian American Jersey towns of Lodi, and Hasbrouck Heights. We’d walk to the local Italian deli to get veal cutlets, hard salami, and provolone. At the time, veal cutlets and mashed potatoes were the staples of my sister Jocelyn’s diet, but by age twelve, she became a vegetarian and animal rights activist and it was bye-bye veal. Nana’s house was comforting in all the best ways. Our parents were going through a divorce and much of our life at the time was filled with the confusion, chaos and sadness that often accompany a split up. Nana always smelled like good perfume.


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